Trying to Find a Little Sanity Amidst the Chaos

Dear Sweet Hubby has been working 65 hours a week. LBB has been full of energy and exploring non-stop. And I've been trying to keep up with them, keeping the house clean and orderly, making healthy meals (most of the time), and trying to be the best Mommy and Wife that I can be.

Anyone who is a Mommy and Wife can agree with me here:

Sometimes, that feels impossible.

Lately I've felt that I'm just not doing enough. That I'm not playing enough. Being patient enough. Listening enough. Relaxing enough. Enjoying enough. Praying enough.

You name it. I don't feel like I'm up to par.

And then it dawned on me. I'm trying to do it all on my own. Sure, Dear Sweet Hubby is here for me. Family is here for me. But amidst all the chaos, all the busyness...I've been forgetting to give it to God.

So here I sit tonight. Pondering. Thinking. Praying. Reading.

And I came across this verse:

"Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me." Psalm 54:4


I sure could use some "sustaining" right now. When all that sounds good is a lazy day curled up in bed with nowhere to go, but when reality is busy days filled with lots of love and adventure (because I'm not complaining about the days, just the feeling of chaos), I could use some sustaining. When I feel like I've been cleaning up messes from sunup to sundown, only to turn around and find a new one, I could use some sustaining. When Dear Sweet Hubby lets me know he has to work late again and LBB is already set on wanting Daddy home right now, I could use some sustaining.

It's in those moments that I HAVE to remember to give it to God. I have to remember to pray to Him in the midst of the chaos. I have to remember that He is the One who sustains me. He is the One that can take those extra worries away. He is the One that can give me the patience I so desperately need. He is the One that can make me see these chaotic days as the gift that they truly are.

And then?

That's when I can play more. Enjoy more. Relax more. Laugh more. Marvel more. And just plain be in the moment and not constantly trying to take care of 10,000 things at once.