The Path

I've spent a LOT of time trying to decide what I'm supposed to be doing in life.

And aside from being LBB's Mommy and wife to Dear Sweet Hubby, I've come short of having any answers.

Where do I want to live? Do we want to buy a house? City or country? Vintage or modern? Now or later?

I suffer from a serious case of mutt-personality. (A little bit of everything all rolled into one.)

But, I'm learning. I'm thinking. I'm praying.

And I'm discovering.

Discovering what I really want. And that while it may be a couple of years away, it's worth waiting for. I'm the kind of girl that loses patience. If it's not going to happen in the next year, I take the easy way out.

But one thing I know for sure?

I don't want to live in our apartment forever. I want a piece of land to call our own. I want a backyard for my little guy (and hopefully more little ones) to be able to run around in. I want our own little paradise that is all ours. I want a old, character filled home that I can renovate to fit my family just right. I want a chicken coop.

Yes, a chicken coop. :)

See, all these years, I've wanted this. But, it will take work to get there. It will take sacrifice. And it's much easier to just make do and settle than it is to sacrifice.

But. No more.

We are done settling. We want so much more for ourselves. For our family. For our happiness.

We are embarking on a journey that will hopefully lead to the lifestyle we want. And conveniently, within an hour of the metro and all the big city conveniences. It works out that way.

Someday, my little guy can have the puppy he keeps wishing the cat was. He can have a yard to run around in to his hearts content. And he can have all the fresh strawberries he could possibly dream of. :)

That is what will make the sacrifice and hard work worth it. :)

It feels good to find my path. It feels good to know, that despite the rough terrain and hard work that will come over the next 3 years, at the end of that path will be a most wonderful reward. Now is the time to finally get our butts in gear and get to work. No longer are we putting off what needs to be done today until tomorrow.

Wish us luck. :)