I COULD apologize...

...for my obvious lack of posting.

But I won't. :)

Simply because, well, I've been LIVING. Less time writing about life, and more time enjoying it. Less time trying to figure out if I should keep this private or public, and more time focusing on what this blog is actually about.

Life.

I love my little blog. I love that it is here when I want to write. Here when I want to share. And here when I just need a place to put my thoughts. But, I have finally learned that if a day, week, or even month goes by without me writing...well, that's ok. :)

Dear Sweet Hubby and I are refocusing. We're refocusing all of that energy that we've been putting into previous priorities and switching things up a bit. We've had a revelation, and it's been life changing.

There's a spark in each and every one of us. Somedays, it's easy to suffocate that spark. It's easy to just go about your daily life, ignoring the very thing that drives you as a person. And then somedays, you feel that spark  ignite again. You feel alive.

You feel like you are doing what you are meant to be doing.

Dear Sweet Hubby and I have wandering souls. Lucky for us we found each other, and now our souls get to wander together. And, lucky for us (I think), LBB has that same wandering spirit that we have. We aren't content to just "be." There is more that we want to do. More we want to see.

We're realizing that even with our wandering souls, it's ok to have a "ground base." A place to call "home." And we embrace everything about our home. For the longest time, we've beat ourselves up over our decision to stay in an apartment. We felt like the responsible thing was to buy a home. Have a white picket fence. A big furry dog that jumped for joy whenever we walked in the door.

We thought that was our dream.

But it wasn't OUR dream. It was society's dream.

We have finally realized, after 2 years of trying to have a second blessing, that we are meant to only have our one. Our one and only blessing...and a blessing beyond measure. LBB fills our days with so much more joy than I could ever have imagined...and to be quite frank, I don't want to have to spread that focus around. :) It's a decision that we hold very dear, because it is very personal. We've heard some fairly rude comments since we made the decision, but that's ok. We thought it was our dream to have a large family.

But it wasn't OUR dream. It was society's dream.

Finally realizing what we actually wanted in life has ignited that spark in our soul again.

We finally made a decision that balances practical, real life with our wandering soul.

We've spent far too much time trying to figure out whether or not our decisions were based on what we wanted, or what society deemed as what we wanted.

I thought because I stay at home and homeschool that I needed to have more than one child. I thought that because we are nearing our 30's and "grown up" that I needed to own a home.

But, I'm realizing that this is not society's life I'm living. This is mine. And if after lots of prayer, and lots of thought, we finally came to the conclusion that the decisions we have made are the right ones, than I know that we made the right decision.

We are simplifying life. We are getting rid of so many of the material possessions that take over our lives. We are, quite simply, going back to the basics. We are letting go of society's version of what we should be.

In the end, it's the stories that matter. It's the nights of watching LBB kayak with his Daddy. It's the evening walks with dear friends. It's the hikes we take, and the fun adventures we share.

It's getting rid of the unnecessary material possessions and the worldly debt. It's making goals to see new places. Help people in need. That's what matters. That is what I want my life to be. I want to feel that spark I felt when I thought I could see anything in the world...because we can. I want to show LBB that there is something more to life that just the daily grind. More to life than what we have. I want him to embrace his "spark"...the spark that drives him to be the funny, energetic, adventurous, and unique little guy that he is.

It's time for me to start embracing everything that I hold dear. It is time for me to focus on those things. And, if sometimes this blog gets ignored, you know why now. :) We're busy living. We're busy adventuring.

We're busy creating our story. Thanks for reading my very lengthy, very rambly post today. :)

(Check out this TEVA ad. I saw it the other day and it gave me goosebumps because it is everything I've been feeling lately.)